I am working on my daily devotions.  This was something that I wasn’t really taught as a child. My mother’s motto was “Work, work, work.”  And I’m sorry, but I inherited that motto.  Or let’s say, it was drummed into me.  To this day, I can’t sit down and do nothing without feeling guilty.  My mother’s chastisement comes to me unconsciously.  “Linda?  What are you doing,” she used to holler from the kitchen as I sat in my room.  “Nothing,” was my reply.  “Then get busy,” she would instruct.  Today, I can’t even watch TV without having something else to do.  The laptop computer makes that easy.  I can read mail, check out facebook, even play stupid computer games, and at least feel like I’m doing something.

Bill and I went to a seminar at church on how to study the bible.  We got the book, Rick Warren’s Bible Study Methods.  It has been very helpful.  In the past, I used to read the Bible daily, working on the goal of reading it from cover to cover in a year.  That is possible, reading only 3 chapters a day.  I’ve done it once.  But now I want to do more depth study.  One of the ways to study the Bible is to pick a theme.  Then read all the scripture pertaining to that theme.  I know what my first theme would be–FORGIVENESS.

            Here is where the computer is very helpful.  You can just google “scripture verses about forgiving others” and come up with lists.  A great resource for this is  They have 33 verses on forgiving others.

            I’ve been working on forgiving those who hurt me all my life.  And I know how important it is.  Forgiving others that hurt you is important for your health.  Because the anger and resentment that you carry only causes you stress.  It doesn’t hurt them at all. And the stress in your body causes acidity, which leads to toxin buildup, which leads to tissue breakdown, which leads to disease.  Did you know that every cancer has an emotional beginning?  If you or someone you love has had cancer, think about when it started.  Go a few months to years before, and evaluate.  Were there any emotional traumas in your (or their) life?  More than likely there were.

            I have a book on forgiveness written by Robin Casarjian that I used to share with patients that had problems.  I recommend it to anyone having difficulty in this area.

            Forgiveness is a process.  It doesn’t just happen at the thought of “I’m going to forgive this person.”  You have to work at it.  But through prayer and application, over time, it does occur.  Sometimes it is just like a lightning bolt.  I know that is how it happened that I forgave Marty’s daughter, Laura.  Laura, in my opinion, was the cause of Marty and me splitting up.  Looking back at it, she probably wasn’t the only cause.  But she did cause us our only arguments in our marriage.  At that time I was trying to find forgiveness.  I read the scriptures listed in the bible, and suddenly, my heart felt warm.  I actually felt no more animosity toward her.  It didn’t help much, because Marty was already on his way out of my life, and that was a God-appointed decision as well.  At the time I didn’t recognize that, however, but now I do.

Right now, I have so many people that I am working on forgiving.  In the Bible, Matthew 18, 21-22 says “Then Peter came up and said to him, “Lord, how often will my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? As many as seven times?” Jesus said to him, “I do not say to you seven times, but seventy times seven.

           I think that what Jesus means here is that you have to keep working at it.  It might not happen the first time you say “I’m going to forgive.”  But if you keep saying it over and over, day after day, it eventually does happen.


I’m back

It’s hard to believe that I haven’t written since August 21.  I was having a little depression cycle then, but that was easily treated with the St. John’s Wort I have growing in the flower beds of my home.  Steep a few sprigs in some hot water, and voila, a nice drink that helps you feel better.  So I can’t use that as an excuse.

The next problem I had was the word that everything I wrote was being read by the US Attorney’s office.  Obviously from previous posts, that didn’t bother me either.  In fact, I welcomed it.  Since the main problem in this country with what is going on in pain management is government ignorance, I felt that maybe if they read, they would learn.  That is not the case, however.  Their jobs depend on attacking doctors, so it will go on, even if they know what they are doing is wrong.  They will just suffer the consequences in the next life when they have to answer to God for their actions.

What did bother me, and kept me from writing, is their incessant harrassment of my lawyer.  Every thing I wrote, whether on my website or here, would set off a communication from the US Attorney to my lawyer.  It is a waste of her time.  So I decided to stop writing.  But writing is cathartic, and I don’t want people to think that I have stopped my blog.  So I just have to think of things that won’t set off Jenny Waering and waste my lawyer’s time.  I will try to keep my posts on things that are healthful or spiritual. 

I get a daily devotional from David McGee in my email.  It helps me keep focused.  Here is a blurb from a recent one:

Ephesians 6:10-11 “Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.” NKJV

“Jesus, Himself, assured us that we would have trials, yet He did not leave it at that. Instead He said, “But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33) What an encouragement to know that we can take our stand against the enemy knowing that Christ has already insured his defeat. As we stand in Christ, we will find strength for the battle and victory in the end.”

The devil is always after those that believe.  The worst thing to him is that someone is full of faith in God and His promises.  And the devil uses people and circumstances in our lives to try to break us.  But the main thing we have to remember are the two most important commandments.  Love the Lord with all your heart and soul and mind and strength     and     Love your neighbor as yourself.  Do these, and the rest won’t matter.  We are put here on earth to be tested.  The goal is our place next to the father in heaven.  Don’t let the devil rob you of your place.  Always keep perspective.  The rest is small stuff.

Today is nothing important.  Just me rambling.  It’s times like this where blogs serve as journals or diaries, and you really hope that there aren’t people out there following you. 

Life is a roller coaster.  Some days up, some days down.  Today is one of  those down days.  I could blame it on something or not.  It really doesn’t matter.  Things don’t have to happen for moods to swing.  They always do and they always will. The good news is that when you are feeling down, you know the roller coaster is going to be chugging up the ramp to the top of the next rise, and soon you are going to be feeling great again.  Of course, it doesn’t help that I forgot to pick my St. John’s Wort in Dublin so I could make some tea.  That works wonderfully on days like today.  I’ll be sure and make some when I go to Dublin this coming weekend.

When I feel down, I start playing computer games.  A pure waste of time, but it gets me through the day.  So far this morning I’ve checked email, put a few things on facebook, and played Burger Shop 2.  Not a lot to say for my time, but everything else will still be there tomorrow. 

Well, I guess I’ve rambled enough.  There are some things I really do need to do.  Now I just have to get up the energy to do them.  One, two, three–up!!

ImageTo continue yesterday’s blog on Women’s Libido: How to Make Sex Better

6.  Stay away from synthetic hormones.  Now this direction presents a problem.  How do you avoid pregnancy without birth control pills?  I give this direction only to women who have the ability to be in control of their bodies and be responsible.  If you can’t be responsible, then continue to use OCPs, and just try to supplement your libido with natural remedies.  But if you can be responsible, then do away with synthetic hormones.  Barrier methods of contraception such as the diaphragm, or the IUD have 95% or greater success.  A very simple procedure to help prevent pregnancy is the cervical mucus test.  Around ovulation the mucus changes character.  This period can then be identified and avoiding intercourse can prevent pregnancy.  If a woman wants to follow natural methods for contraception, but whose cycle is irregular can be returned to a regular monthly cycle with homeopathic hormones given according to the lunar calendar. 

It is important to understand that the endocrine system works together. When one hormone is deficient, other hormones follow suit.  Consider hormones like the legs of a stool.  If one leg gets short, the body tries to stabilize the stool by robbing hormones from the other legs, shortening them.  So adrenal insufficiency brought on by overstimulation of the adrenals can lead to other endocrine deficiencies, such as the sex hormones and thyroid. The immune system and the thymus are involved, too, because immune response is inhibited by abnormal hormone levels.

 Both hormones, estrogen and progesterone, are necessary in the female cycle and their balance is key for full health. Many women in our culture have an imbalance of these hormones, especially, insufficient levels of progesterone to counter excessive estrogen — an imbalance further exacerbated by chronic stress. Progesterone is a hormone important to a number of body functions. During times of stress or conditions of chronic adrenal hyper-stimulation, progesterone is capable of being converted into the stress hormone cortisol.

When one goes through chronic or severe long-term stress, the hypothalamus at first triggers an overproduction of the adrenal hormones (especially cortisol and DHEA). This eventually leads to adrenal insufficiency, a state in which the exhausted adrenals cannot respond adequately.

The thyroid gland is also adversely affected by chronic stress.This gland’s roles include regulating calcium metabolism and glycolysis, the breakdown of glucose for body energy fuel. Under normal conditions, the fight-or-flight response causes the thyroid to increase glucose breakdown. In conditions of chronic stress, however, the thyroid is continually overstimulated and eventually becomes depleted. Thyroid function is also disrupted by excessive estrogen, but this can be prevented by adequate progesterone levels.

Symptoms of Overall Endocrine Deficiency

Hyperthyroidism (overactive thyroid functioning) and especially hypothyroidism (low functioning) have become more common in women. The classic symptoms of hypothyroidism include sluggishness, early morning fatigue, cold extremities, lowered basal temperature and menstrual problems, including scanty periods.

Adrenal and other hormonal gland dysfunctions can cause some of the above symptoms and more, including cravings for sweets, weight gain, allergies, heart palpitations, insomnia, depression, fatigue, poor memory, foggy thinking, headaches, nervousness, inability to concentrate, recurrent infections and glucose intolerance.

One very damaging adrenal dysfunction is excessive cortisol production, which causes, among other serious problems, increased calcium mobilization from the bones, leading to osteoporosis, or loss of bone density. In a person with a healthy stress response, excessive levels of cortisol are automatically buffered. Constant stress destroys this feedback loop.

Testing to Establish a Baseline

Comprehensive hormonal testing should be performed to establish a baseline before a woman chooses any kind of hormonal treatment, and then should be repeated periodically thereafter. Note, however, that “normal” (negative) results from conventional laboratory diagnostic tests do not always mean normal function. It is better to use a laboratory like Genova Diagnostics.  There testing can be done and interpreted through more enlightening alternative methods.

By evaluating hormonal changes over a 24-hour period, a pattern can be determined and a treatment protocol designed. An effective plan involving natural hormones, nutritional support and various stress-relief therapies can be successfully implemented to reestablish the proper menstrual dynamics, hormonal balance and well-being.

Transdermal Delivery System for treating hormone deficiencies.

The first treatment consideration for improving libido is, as mentioned earlier, that the maladaptive stress response must be interrupted so that sex hormones will no longer be converted for stress purposes. Women must know that, until these conversion pathways are closed, supplementation with the sex hormones estrogen and progesterone is of little value because they will easily be converted. First, therefore, proper levels of the adrenal hormones cortisol and dehydroepiandrosterone (DHEA) need to be reestablished.

Once that is accomplished, hormonal restoral of estrogen and progesterone is best accomplished with transdermal creams using a dual-phase approach, which uses estrogen-dominant (only if estrogen is deficient) supplementation during the first 14 days and progesterone supplementation during the second 14 days.

In general, women are not estrogen deficient.  In fact, often there is an overabundance of estrogen effect in the body. Now much of this estrogen effect is not from naturally produced human estrogen, however, but from the estrogen-mimicking chemicals we ingest in our food.  Hormones fed to cows for milk production and growth, estrogen-like compounds in plastics, even the water we drink contains estrogen, probably from oral contraceptives released in our water supply.  So generally what women need to balance the estrogen effect is more progesterone.  This is especially true as women get older and accumulate more fat deposits because fat also releases estrogen. Unfermented soy, as in soy milk, soy nuts, or soy substitutes should therefore be avoided by women, as they add to the estrogen effect.

A transdermal (rubbed onto the skin) hormonal cream supplement works best. It is easily applied and delivered.  Hormones that are taken by mouth get digested just like any other substance, and the hormone is lost.  Transdermal application bypasses the obstacle of breakdown in the digestive system or liver. Also, the best placement is as close to nature as possible, through the vaginal mucosa. That provides placement close to the ovaries where their effects are most important, or distribution through the same pelvic blood vessels that nature would use.  While the use of these creams or any other hormonal therapy should be initiated under the guidance of a healthcare practitioner, the creams provide an individual the ability to adjust the dosage to the exact amount needed during each phase. Supplementing with both phyto-estrogen (from natural plant sources) and progesterone will re-balance the natural monthly cycle. Pre-menopausal women should use the phyto-estrogen cream from day one through 15 of their monthly cycle (day one is first day of menses); the progesterone cream should be used from day 16 through 28. Postmenopausal women can create a cycle by using the lunar cycle.  From new moon to full moon is estrogen and from full moon to new is progesterone. After four cycles, women should get fully retested to see whether the dosages of the creams and other supplements need further adjustment.

Transdermal Supplementation of Progesterone

Hormones need only be rubbed once or twice a day into the mucous membranes. However, what typically works wonderfully initially can invariably stop working because of  “dermal fatigue”.  Progesterone is highly fat-soluble and once applied will store itself in fat tissue. The fat tissue becomes saturated with the hormones and they will actually stop working or can even make symptoms worse. When one initially uses the cream, there aren’t any problems as the fat stores are very low. But as time goes on, the cream accumulates and contributes to disruptions of the adrenal hormones such as DHEA, cortisol, and testosterone. Although progesterone cream is an enormously useful tool, it needs to be used very cautiously. Progesterone is normally a cyclical hormone and the body really needs to see a change in the concentration to affect a proper physiological response. If the level is constantly above the concentration that it recognizes as “off” or low, this is not possible. Therefore, it is imperative to check levels with treatment, and use pulse therapy.

For most premenopausal women the dose is applied for 14 days before expected menses, stopping the day or so before menses.  So the cream is applied for twelve days and then stopped, typically starting on day 12 of the cycle and stopping on day 26. The abrupt lowering of the progesterone level is the primary stimulus for menses to start.  Hopefully when it starts any PMS and painful periods will be dramatically reduced.

When a women is in menopause she should use the lunar cycle, starting on the full moon and ending 2 days before the new moon.

For most women a single daily application will work. However, because the half-life is relatively short, some women find that they get a more satisfactory response by splitting the daily dose in two, half in the morning and half in the evening.

A common preparation used for progesterone replacement is Dioscorea villosa or wild yam.  One of the problems, however, with buying products in America is just because it claims to be something, it doesn’t necessarily mean that it is. So I prefer to buy my products from Seroyal where they are made in Europe.  By European standards, they must have in the product what they say they have.  And the Genestra brand is the highest quality pharmaceutical grade product I’ve found. 

A combination product, Multi Gyn, has been helpful for women to get hormonally balanced.  Both Multi Gyn and Dioscorea cream can be ordered here:

Testosterone Deficiency

Testosterone is just as important for the woman’s libido as it is for men.  Progesterone serves as the testosterone precursor in the ovary’s production of testosterone. So when progesterone is deficient, so is testosterone.  Hysterectomies with bilateral oophorectomies are much more commonplace today, as symptoms of hormone deficiency causing abnormal uterine bleeding are often treated by unnecessary surgery.  Women should avoid removal of their reproductive organs, even when not useful anymore.  The body should be considered a whole, and all parts contribute to the entire well-being.  Surgery to remove organs that are, by conventional standards, considered unnecessary, should be eliminated. Luckily, for women who have had their ovaries removed, the body can still produce testosterone through the adrenals.  However, testosterone deficiency is still a problem.  Testosterone levels should be checked if there is plan to treat with any form of testosterone cream.  Treating women with testosterone is not conventionally accepted at this point, but there are a lot of doctors doing it.  The problem is that there are side effects of testosterone treatment that make this method difficult.

What I would like to recommend is a natural testosterone replacement that the body uses as it needs.  This is with the gemmotherapy, Quercus pedonculata, and is the “magical treatment” for libido that I mentioned at the onset of this article.


Gemmotherapy is a branch of phytotherapy (more specifically embryophytotherapy) which was discovered by Henri Pol Bruxele and colleagues in 1965. Gemmotherapy incorporates the buds of fresh plants or embryonic tissues in the growth phase, such as young shoots. These tissues are rich in growth factors, including phyto hormones, auxins and gibberellins. The active principles in the gems are present which start to disappear after a plant reaches a certain point in its growth. Glycerin is used to concentrate these embryonic factors in the remedy.

Quercus pedonculata, or oak buds, acts on adrenal insufficiency and decreased libido.  It acts not as testosterone itself, or it would be broken down by the digestive tract since it is taken orally.  Instead, it is the precursor to testosterone, and the body uses it to produce its own testosterone.  In this manner, you don’t get overdosed or have side effects of being overtreated.

For women, the standard dose is 50 drops (1/2 teaspoon) twice a day. It is recommended to take Quercus for three months before evaluation of its effect.  If the desired effect is not achieved, look more at adrenal stress, continue to treat that, and then continue with the Quercus in a pulsed treatment–3 months on, one month off. This helps the body avoid treatment fatigue.

Quercus can be purchased on my website.  Go to

Tonight I had the privilege of being a host on Dr. Veronica’s blog talk radio show, Wellness for the Whole World.  Dr. Vernonica and I have something in common.  We have both been introduced to media enrichment by going to Steve Harrison’s Publicity Summit.  She has gone much farther than I have in reaching people, but someday I will be there too.  Especially as all of you who read my blog pass the information on to friends.  Someday I’m going to be famous.  I’m already infamous as the “Felon for Healthcare” and current charges of being Southwest Viriginia’s Drug Lord for calling in a doctor’s legitimate prescriptions.  But you know all that already, and I want to share the topic that Dr. Veronica and I talked about.  SEX!!!  And How to Make it Better!!!! 

Basically there is too much to put in one blog post, so I will break it down into several.  In the end, I will share with you the wonderful remedy that I’ve used and my patients have used for improving sex drive.  As I tell my patients, “The mailman never looked so good!”  But anyway, first we need to understand why sex drives are so low in women.  Here is the basis of my talk with Dr. Veronica:

Anxiety and acidity

Since the beginning of mammalian existence, hormones have played an important part of survival.  One of the key components in survival is the “fight or flight” response.  This response alerts one of danger and prepares the body for escape.  Does sex have a role here? No.  You would not see a caveman on a rocky cliff facing a saber-toothed tiger suddenly have an erection.  And if he were in the middle of lovemaking when the danger appeared, any erection would suddenly disappear.  So adrenal stimulation decreases sexual response.  And today we have adrenal stimulation almost continuously, from the ringing of the alarm clock in the morning to the sports contests in the evening. We even promote anxiety with the foods we eat, heavy in sugar and caffeine. Sugar and caffeine are primary acidifiers of the body. Other acidifiers are grains, fats, red meats, alcohol and dairy, all primary agents in the standard American diet.  With acidification of the body, there is continuous anxiety.  The body is literally destroying itself with acid and can’t get away from it.  This sets up a continuous internal anxiety that creates a continuous fight or flight response, ergo decreased libido. The body can’t distinguish real physical danger to survival from the innocuous caused by adrenal stimulation. But the reaction is the same–no SEX, please!!

Secondly, the raw ingredients for hormones are lacking.

Sex hormones are composed of a cholesterol skeleton.  In order to make hormones, there must be cholesterol in the body.  Due to the erroneous blaming of cholesterol in the last century for the development of heart disease, conventional medicine has made it imperative that people decrease the cholesterol in their body.  Instead of being a bad guy, cholesterol is actually a good guy.  The reason why cholesterol is laid down in arteries is to protect the artery against the acidity.  This is why, in spite of our lowering cholesterol in the body to unnatural levels, heart disease is still not controlled, and is actually worse.

So instead of limiting our cholesterol, we should be controlling our acidity with diet.  That would leave cholesterol for the formation of hormones.  Proper balance of hormones in the body is one of the components of a healthy libido.

Hormones work on a feedback mechanism.  Another problem with female hormones is the use of synthetic hormones in the form of birth control and estrogen replacement therapy during menopause.  For years it would have been considered malpractice for a doctor to not put menopausal women on ERT, until the Nurse Study became public.  Then we found out that ERT created more risk for heart disease and cancer than it did benefit.  Artificial hormones such as Premarin, Provera, and the hormones in oral contraceptives all create the feedback on the pituitary so that natural hormone production is curtailed.  However, these synthetic hormones do not act in the body like our own hormones. Ergo, libido is again reduced.

So What’s a Body to Do?

In order to increase female libido the right way, you must allow the body to do what it is designed to do, unencumbered. There is no magic pill or potion to undo the damage of conventional medical ignorance.  You simply can’t keep poisoning your body and expect it to perform.  Now at the end of this article, I will introduce you to an almost magical libido enhancer.  But if you don’t change your lifestyle and allow your body to return to the natural health it is entitled to, the product I will tell you about could only have partial effect, and you could still end up short of your full potential.

So here are the steps a woman should take to increase her libido and enjoyment of sex.

1.  Decrease anxiety.  Eliminate sugar and caffeine from the diet, or at least make them only a special treat once in a while.  Limit stresses.  Eat regularly.  Maintain the same schedule every day.  Try to wake up naturally without an alarm clock.  That means getting the right amount of sleep every night, going to bed at a decent hour.  Watching news or crime shows on TV is unhealthful and increases anxiety. Exercise regularly.  Wake up every morning with joy and look forward to the day.  Do daily devotions.

2.  Tapping. There is a wonderful treatment for the emotions called tapping.  When we don’t achieve our sexual desires, we can develop depression, anxiety, and railroad future performance.  Tapping, or EFT, can help the person get things back on track emotionally.  Tapping is explained in books or on the Internet.  It is useful for almost anything, and everyone should use it.

3.  Alkaline Diet.  Treat acidity in the body by adhering to the alkaline diet.  Eat primarily fruits and vegetables. Avoid sugar, breads, dairy, red meats, fats, and alcohol.  Check your salivary and urinary pH.  Try to maintain a salivary pH of 7 or slightly higher.  Urinary pH will vary as a reflection of the acids being removed from the body, but should never be higher than the salivary pH or there is an indication of renal insufficiency.  Usually 1 point lower is standard.

4.  Do not take cholesterol medication.  Since cholesterol is not the enemy, you need to focus on what really is important to the body’s health–its acidic overload. By following the alkaline diet, excess cholesterol is not produced, arteries do not have to be protected, and the cholesterol your body produces can be used to make hormones.

5.  Take supplemental vitamin D and get your vitamin D levels checked.  Even though America is a sun-worshiping country, we don’t get regular daily exposure to the sun for natural formation of Vitamin D.  Fifteen minutes per day of sun exposure would be enough, and if you could walk daily for exercise and sun exposure, great.  If not, take supplements. Especially people on cholesterol medicine are deficient in Vitamin D.

6.  Stay away from synthetic hormones. This topic will be continued in tomorrow’s blog along with treatments.

Here is the link for my latest publication, Health on a Budget.

If interested in a seminar on this or the Seven Steps to Healing, please contact me through my website,  It doesn’t matter where you are, Skype can bring us together.

I apologize for the lack of posts recently.  I’ve been working on my legal case and have just been busy.  But I will be posting more soon.

More government propaganda is being printed by the media.  This time it is against methadone.  The link to the article is

In this article the government blames methadone for overdoses using it.  I blame the government.  The government sends hundreds of people to the street to treat their chronic pain every time they raid and close down a pain management clinic.  Those people have to self-medicate because there is no one to lead them in their treatment.

Methadone is different from other opiates, true.  It can be deadly if used incorrectly.  But the cause of the deaths using it is government attacks on good physicians.

The problem with methadone is that it doesn’t treat acute pain.  It treats chronic pain.  Getting one dose/day, like they do in methadone clinics for withdrawal from heroin or other opiate addiction does not treat pain.  You have to dose methadone 3-4 times/day for pain relief.  That is odd for a drug with such a long half-life.  Usually the longer half-life, the longer the effectiveness.  For methadone, that is true of the withdrawal effects, but not the pain management effects.  Average people don’t know that, however.  So since methadone is available on the street and relatively cheap, people buy it to avoid withdrawal with the hope that it will also help their pain.  But when they take one, it doesn’t help the pain.  So they take another, and another. They think that they should get relief from the pain with the pill.  But it doesn’t happen.  What does happen, however, is the drug builds up in the system and over the next few days, the respiratory system is slowed down, quite possibly to death. 

Is this death caused by the methadone?  Maybe directly.  But the bottom line cause is the lack of pain management due to the attacks on the government on doctors such as myself.  In approximately six years of use of methadone from 2002 to 2008, I did not had a single death due to my care, following my instructions.  You would think the government would consider that record applaudable.  But no, they refused to give me a DEA certificate when I applied again in 2009.

There are a lot of quotes in this article by Dr. Thomas Frieden, director of the U.S. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. Such as “All of the evidence suggests that the increase in methadone deaths is related to the increased use of methadone to treat pain.”  Well how about matching the methadone deaths with the closures of pain clinics?  How about just correlating the methadone deaths around the times that pain clinics have been shut down?  I bet there will be more of a positive correlation with those than just with methadone being prescribed for chronic pain.

Mr Freiden also states “There is little evidence that methadone works for chronic non-cancer pain,”  mentioning backache or headache. This just shows his ignorance and the government prejudice against proper pain management.  Methadone is just like any other opiate, when used by a doctor trained in pain management.  If it doesn’t work, you change.  But for many people methadone works like a wonder drug.

Yes, methadone is a maverick drug in many ways.  That is why it takes a doctor trained in its use to prescribe it.  I was one such doctor.  Yet they ignore my knowledge and training and send hundreds of patients to the street for treatment.  Methadone is a wonderful drug for the population I treated–the uninsured.  Being cheaper than the branded drugs, it was affordable for people who couldn’t afford other chronic pain medications.

The government seems to be on a track to eliminate methadone from the choices for pain management.  In my opinion, that fits right in to their overall attack on the poor. It is my opinion that our government is engaged in legal genocide–systematically getting rid of the poor, indigent, disabled and elderly.  We as a society need to rein in our government agencies, especially the DEA and DOJ.  They are not working in the people’s interest, but against it.

There is a current trial going on in California.  Dr. Lisa Tseng is on trial for murder because of three patients dying, supposedly from her prescribing. I would like to use this case to demonstrate what is so wrong with our legal system in the area of doctor witchhunts and also why I am being so vocal about my situation.

First, she was charged with three counts of murder. Besides the murder charges, Dr. Tseng faces one felony count of prescribing drugs using fraud and 20 felony counts of prescribing drugs without a legitimate medical purpose.  Based on these facts alone, I hypothesize that Dr. Tseng was actually not a bad physician.  Murder is very hard to prove.  The fact that the government had to use that as their main charge and there are only 21 others involving the usual charge of prescribing without legitimate medical purpose would show that the government was not able to find much wrong with her care.  Just as in my case in 2008, the dirth of accusations of prescribing without a justifiable medical purpose actually shows good management.  The average person doesn’t realize how easy the government throws that charge around.  In the courtroom, prescribing without justifiable medical purpose only means that the US Attorney thinks they can make a jury think that way.  It has absolutely no connection with reality or if there really was a medical problem.  But it sounds so ominous to the average person.  “WHAT?” They ask. “She would write a prescription without a medical reason? How bad is that?” Little do they know it is a complete brainwash.  Mix that with the comments from the US Attorney that “She did it for the money.” makes her look really bad.  Usually in cases against doctors the charges of prescribing without justifiable medical purpose mount into the hundreds.  So for there to only be 20 in Dr. Tseng’s case is actually to her credit.

Secondly, in the case of one of the deaths, Dr. Tseng actually decreased the prescriptions being given–prescriptions for Oxycontin and Xanax.  The government is claiming that Dr. Tseng tapered too abruptly, causing withdrawal, possible seizure (from the Xanax. Opiate withdrawal doesn’t cause seizure) and death.  So that shows that Dr. Tseng is not going to just be filling a patient’s order of “I’ll take 300 OC’s and 120 XX’s please.” with a “Here you go, see you next month.” The information doesn’t say when the last scripts were filled by the patient.  In some cases so much time has elapsed since the last script that if you gave them what they had on record, it could be an overdose.  And just because a patient is on a high amount of opiates doesn’t automatically make him a drug abuser.  Some people have been on medications for years.  The levels of toxicity in the body can make more medications required for the same effect.  That is seen in all medications from anti-depressants to PPIs (like Nexium).  How do people think it shouldn’t happen to pain meds?  Fibromyalgia is the best example of what toxicity does.  For those patients, extremely high dosages of almost all medications are required to get an effect.

Now, in response to charging a doctor for reducing a dose and causing withdrawal, I honestly don’t understand how US Attorney’s offices can do that with a straight face.  All over the country pain practices are being shut down in a matter of minutes.  Thousands of patients are suddenly cut off from all of their controlled drugs, including Xanax.  People are dying every day from this exact cause, and it is the government at the helm of the death squads, not doctors.  Why aren’t they having to answer for their murders?  Because the government is untouchable.  They have created the laws to put themselves out of reach from those they have wronged.  That includes the doctors like me and possibly Dr. Tseng.  We can never be compensated for the damage done to us and our loved ones physically, emotionally, financially and sometimes spiritually.  One of the things that needs to change in this country is if the government fails to show just cause for their attack on a doctor, the doctor should have legal recourse and be compensated. Especially when the charges are completely fabricated by the government, as in my case. So should the families of patients that have died at the hand of government attacks on doctors’ practices. In my practice eight people that I know of have died at the hand of government attack in 6 months, and there are probably more I don’t know about.  It doesn’t matter if it was overdose from self-medication or heart attack from the stress of untreated pain or suicide.  The government should be held accountable.

Another charge against Dr. Tseng is that she has prescribed 27,000 prescriptions in 3 years, or 25/day.  Actually, that’s not very many considering she prescribed opiates, anti-anxiety meds and muscle relaxants.  That would be 3/patient.  So that allows for 8 patients/day.  I’m sure the numbers they will come up with in my trial will be even higher, simply because most of the patients treated by the doctor in my practice were pain patients, and we took care of more than eight/day. I truly believe that the only problem with Dr. Tseng prescribing was that she was an internist and probably independent.  The government doesn’t want primary care physicians treating pain.  That’s because there is a health trap in America. Doctors are primarily owned by hospitals.  Insurance companies, doctors, Big Pharma and the government want you to spend your money on healthcare–the businesses because they make money, and the government because by doing so, you will stay sick and die young–saving them from SSI and disability payments. We could save 50% of our health care costs in this country if people would stop going to hospital owned doctors and go to independents like myself.  We are in business to make our patients healthy and well, not to make our hospital bosses money. In this area of SW Virginia, most of the doctors that have been attacked have been independents like myself. The hospital-owned pain management groups manage to stay clear of government attacks.  Surprised?

Lastly, if you Google Lisa Tseng, all you see is bad.  All the press is bad–what they are told by the government, disgruntled patients, or family of the deceased patients.  Dr. Tseng, following her lawyer’s orders, says nothing.  The only response coming from her lawyer is:  “Dr. Tseng cares deeply about all her patients and looks forward to her opportunity to vindicate herself in court.” How can that offset public opinion with all the government propaganda spread by the media?  After all, the papers have to print something. That’s one of the problems with trials today.  Only the government position is publicized.  And the information that the public is fed by the government is wrong.  That pills cause addiction.  The term “pill mill” to label a doctor’s practice. I do not intend to let that be my story. I will be trying to educate the public as to the truth. I will welcome press interviews, TV appearances.  After all, the people deserve the truth. Opiates don’t cause addiction in and of themselves. I know the cause of addiction, can treat it and prevent it, and the government knows it. That’s one of the reasons they are persecuting me. Obviously with the job the government has done to brainwash us to think that the prescription is the problem and therefore the doctor causes addiction, no doctor has a chance.  I might not be able to teach enough people the truth to save myself, but hopefully over time the people will begin to see the truth, and eventually the government will stop putting good doctors in prison simply because they can.

Well, folks, I made a mistake in an earlier post.  I said that the action of the government freezing my office building would help me with the bank calling in my note.  Wrong.  Instead now, they are going after my sister and brother-in-law who helped me back in 2000 with my original mortgage.  We had thought they had been removed from the mortgage, but StellarOne states they didn’t.  I wouldn’t have taken the interest-only note a year ago if I knew they were just doing that so they could end my original mortgage and now demand the remainder owed.  As Jay Johnson said last year, “The last thing the bank wants is to own a building.”  So they give me a change in my payments only to claim the original mortgage is ended.  They didn’t do that in 2008, but I guess they can now. Shoot, as far as I know in finances, they could have ended the note anyway.  I’m not up on all the ins and outs of the financial world, but I’m sure the banks are.  Otherwise this country wouldn’t be in the financial fix that it is in.  But that’s the subject for another post someday.

The lesson for others to learn here? Mr. Johnson also told me last year that most people just let things slide, ignoring the letters from the bank, etc.  He said he appreciated me coming forward and working things out.  Bull.  I guess the other people had more experience than me, and knew that working things out is not what the bank considers good business. Getting their money however they can is what they are interested in.

If anyone reading this post has $200,000 they would like to make 5% interest on and would loan it to me (I’m good for it, I promise, over time), please drop me a line.  Also, please pray for all of us.  I don’t mind standing up for principle, even at the cost of imprisonment.  But when other people have to suffer too because of my principles, I hurt deeply.

There is so much to report and so much to say to show people how God is working through all this.  I hope I will cover it all through my posts.  But today I want to show how God can turn bad to good for those who believe.

In 1999 I decided to build an office building for complementary medicine and have several different physicians working together.  It never did make it.  I wasn’t welcomed by my physician colleagues in the area for several reasons-my sex, my love for healing instead of keeping people sick and dependent on me, and just the “good ol’ boy” system in the community.  As most of the people in the community were on government insurance, they weren’t really interested in spending what little money they had on healing remedies when pills cost only $1. But at the time I was looking at the world through rose-colored glasses.

I considered it God’s annointing of my plan when He led me to Sam Tollison, founder and president of First National Bank of Christiansburg. He had a building designed next to the branch of his bank in Dublin, just 5 miles from my home.  He decided to sell me the plans for the building instead of renting to me.  I designed the interior for what I wanted, and built the building.  I had an occasional renter–a naturopath, 2 massage therapists, but their stay wasn’t long because of the lack of interest in the area.  So my medical office ended up using the entire building and I ended up with the full mortgage.  This limited my income, but I considered the future of the building would be my retirement, so I didn’t mind.

Ten years later, I still owe $200,000 on the building.  Sam Tollison retired from First National Bank and it was merged with StellarOne.  Now the commercial nature of the bank took over.  Sam had been a fantastic boon for the economy of the average businessman in the area.  He was a handshake kind of guy.  Many times he took a risk on someone coming to him for a loan.  But more times than not, his trust was well-founded, and the businesses he supported with loans did well.  I became associated with First National Bank when Sam gave me the loan I needed on my building. 

When I lost my license to practice medicine last July I went to StellarOne and asked them to repeat a favor that they had done for me once before.  When I lost my license in 2008 for 9 months, the bank allowed me to pay them interest only during that time.  Then when I got my license back, we returned to the regular loan where we left off.  I asked for that again.  Jay Johnson, representing the bank, said no problem.  They would help me out.  However, when it came time to sign the agreement, this time things were different.  The differences weren’t made known to me until January of 2012.  First, the note was only for 6 months.  Jay explained at first that they would renew it in 6 months.  Having 2 potential new sources of income, making my building a permanent yard sale building and a MLM business I was working, I thought I would even be making money again in 6 months, so I had no problem with that.  But in 6 months, the yard sale business hadn’t gotten off the ground and the MLM business was still not making that much.

When the 2nd note was presented to me, I didn’t catch the announcement that I had to find another bank to finance my loan by July 1.  In other words, StellarOne was not going to continue my original loan like they had done before.  The first time we had done this, I had not forfeited my first note with the interest only change.  But this time they were letting me know they didn’t want my business anymore.   Now how, in this economy, is a person without a job going to find a bank to finance a $200,000 loan?  Jay Johnson also turned the responsibility over to Mary Tabor, a loan officer in the bank.  I approached other banks and very quickly found out that there was no way I was going to get a loan.  So, in actuality, StellarOne took my money for a year, knowing full well that at the end of that year they would also be foreclosing on my property. I consider that to be unethical at best.

Last week I communicated with Mary that I was scheduling appointments with realtors to put the property on the market.  She then informed me that the US Attorney’s office had filed a Protective Order against the property so that nothing could be done with it, including selling it.  However, according to the protective order, I was still supposed to maintain my mortgage payments.  What did StellarOne do with this information?  They froze my personal bank account.  I do not believe that was part of the Protective Order, only the loan on the building.  But Mary said the bank was acting on “the advice of their attorney”. Hopefully that will get straightened out this week and I will be able to pay my bills.  Since the money I’ve been using to pay my bills has been through non-medically related businesses and loans, there should be no link with my personal account and the court case.

Here is where I see the power of God.  Had the bank done what they should have done, which was revert back to my original loan prior to the agreement to pay interest only, I would have a $2400 mortgage payment starting July 1.  But because they basically ended that note with the one they produced in January, and which states that the loan ends July 1, then there is no mortgage payment owed after June 1, my last payment on the existing note.  Since the government has a protective order on the building, basically saying that if I owe the court money at the end of my trial, they will confiscate my property to cover my debt, StellarOne can’t forclose on me.  God has bought me time.  Hopefully by the time I am found not guilty in court, I will be working again as a physician and will be able to find someone to loan me the $200,000 to pay StellarOne off. At least I should be given time by the court to sell the building, since I can’t do it now. 

So, at first the freezing of my finances seemed to be just one more stress to live with.  But upon reflection, I can see God protecting me.  I know He will continue throughout this process to take care of me. And I know I will be able to pay my bills.  He has provided for me thus far, and I know he will continue.  

Matthew 10: 26-30

26 “So do not be afraid of them, for there is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed, or hidden that will not be made known. 27 What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight; what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the roofs. 28 Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell. 29 Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care.[b] 30 And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. 31 So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.

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